As we move through life, there are times that we go through cold winters; times in our life that seem dark; tough, lonely. During these times it is easy to be tough on ourselves, to beat ourselves up. It is great to have some things to work on making life feel better. I heard a recent message called “Spiritual Remedies When You’re Down on Yourself” Who couldn’t use a list of spiritual remedies?
This is summarized from a message given by Dr Richard Teel and can be found here in its entirety.
When we get down on our self; understanding is the first step
Healing begins when we stop demanding things to be different for us to feel better
Healing happens when we stop the struggling against and start taking responsibility
Healing flourishes when we make a new choice and practice a fearlessness.
What are the things we can DO to start the healing cycle?
- Heal the core fear
- Open your healing heart
- Unleash daring and DANCE
So, DANCING is one thing that can start the healing cycle! The subject of dancing has been coming up often in my life. I always feel like dancing, doing the happy dance, dancing while listening to great music – but this is also a metaphor with how I am feeling around my entire life and the joy filled feeling around many things and today’s discussion helped me see so many things in my life as my way of expressing joy and DANCING!!
- Watching my daughter blossom into the young lady she is becoming
- Spending time with positive minded friends
- Looking for ways to participate in life around me with things that are joy filled
- Conversations around the DEEP subjects of our life
- Reconnecting and clarifying perceptions and misconceptions from the past – leading to clarity
- Following initial intuitive gut instincts
- Being ok with unconventional
- Having some fun and exciting goals
Soooooo, SHUT UP AND DANCE WITH ME!
I have been listening to a recording of a teaching around A Course In Miracles – led and taught by Tama Kieves. Something that came up on one of the recordings really gave me an AH HA moment. The topic was around forgiveness. I believe this is such a hot topic in everyone’s life. There seems to always be something going on around us that in order for the cycles in the mind to stop; the need to forgive and move on is at the heart of it. Some of these are easy – someone at work said something that triggered hurt – it isn’t a big enough deal to deal with any conflict around because you notice your own sensitivity in it, so you forgive (and easily forget) it. A former boss indicated that one thing that is good to do is to look at it and ask yourself – “are you going to remember this in 5 years?” Then there are those harder ones. They are around our families, an intimate relationship or something that left us feeling hurt and betrayed. Perhaps it has become OUR STORY.
This idea of “scripts” was a lightbulb going on for me. I can now find myself understanding the reason I sometimes get upset, hurt, angry, or have my mind spinning around something that has occurred – I can clearly see that the person is not acting from my script. Although I would have always told anyone that I don’t have expectations of people, I have – in fact – still been expecting people to do things in certain ways in some circumstances. Return phone calls, texts, respond in a more loving way to me; honor and show me that they feel I am a worthy person. So, as my head does with these things, I started spinning on some of my current situations. The question that then came up for me, – does that mean we allow the treatment that isn’t following the script?
There isn’t one answer. It depends. So what does it depend on? My answer. If someone crosses your boundaries then we don’t allow it. I found the following definition for emotional boundaries at www.psychcentral.com: “they distinguish separating your emotions and responsibility for them from someone else’s. It’s like an imaginary line or force field that separates you and others. Healthy boundaries prevent you from giving advice, blaming or accepting blame. They protect you from feeling guilty for someone else’s negative feelings or problems and taking others’ comments personally. High reactivity suggests weak emotional boundaries. Healthy emotional boundaries require clear internal boundaries – knowing your feelings and your responsibilities to yourself and others.”
We have the right to have boundaries and when we have someone or something cross our boundaries we do not need to allow that person in our life.
Something new has happened in the last couple years. I have had a new realization – I started noticing a voice inside my head that I had not noticed previously. The thing is, I know it has always been there. And, before you think I have totally fallen off my rocker, it isn’t like I am schizophrenic; it is my thoughts – not something outside. I had thoughts and judgments that I was not fully conscious of. Why they have become louder and something I notice now I am not so sure.
What I first noticed is that I had a voice that was providing guidance. This voice would provide me information on a situation around me; a voice that would trigger a physical feeling. It would tell me the person I was speaking to, or the decision I was making in the moment was not someone positive for my life, or that it was not something I wanted to be doing. I would immediately not trust it and I would rationalize it away. I would basically argue the true guidance away.
The next thing I noticed was the judgment and critical voice around all that I did. If I watched a few hours of TV instead of cleaning the house; if I didn’t get enough done, if I didn’t do something at work that I thought I needed to do this voice came out like a vengeance. It beat me up – it drove guilt, it argued with a part of me that was trying to be easier on me.
I came to a realization recently through visiting some past history, where some very clear understanding of what not listening to that initial guidance led to. By not listening to my instincts, my intuition, my gut feelings — I made choices – that had I listened to the gut feelings, may not have been made in the same way. Obviously, these choices have all brought me to where I am today (a place that I would never want to change). Although I do see where I was stalled in some areas of my growth, I continued to strive to look inside and grow and be a better person. Today, I see where I have been living in a protective shell, hiding away from the truth – hiding from being able to be authentic and real with others and myself. The voice has provided me visibility into many things about myself. And, I am just beginning!
Today – I experienced it.
This term was coined by Daniel Goleman. He is behind EQ – Emotional Intelligence. His work is based on the neuroscientist Joseph E. LeDoux’s focused work on the mechanisms of fear. In a high level description, it is the activity that takes on in the brain when one experiences something that scares them. Often this can be something that is not even rational. Based on our own dysfunctional upbringings we have things that we are overly sensitive over. Someone can say or do something that flips a switch inside of us and we find ourselves reacting irrationally before we have the ability to get a hold of the emotions. Voices may raise, our physical bodies react – our heartbeat quickens, we stop breathing, our blood circulation and blood flow is actually reduced, there are chemicals released into our body. When we experience that hijack and we feel a reaction and go into a flight or fight mode the adrenal glands release hormones called CATECHOLAMINES – adrenaline and noradrenalin are released when our bodies experience this Amygdala Hijack.
From the thalamus, a part of the stimulus goes directly to the Amygdala while another part is sent to the thinking part of our brain. If there are experiences recorded in our memory that tells us this is a flight or fight situation, the Amygdala will take over the thinking part of our brain by releasing the hormones. The emotional brain registers activity milliseconds earlier than the rational brain so we end up reacting before the rational thinking responses can be activated.
Goleman explains that this hijack exhibits three signs: “strong emotional reaction, sudden onset and post episode realization that the reaction was inappropriate.”
I was having a loving, nice conversation with a family member when suddenly they said something that triggered this response in me. My reaction actually caused the same reaction in them; which took the conversation into a very ugly drama filled experience. Afterwards, I worked to capture the things said and done by myself and them so I can review and work to find a way to respond rather than react when something like this happens again in the future. Although I believe my thinking brain did re-enter the scene the hormones within the body made it very easy for the thinking brain to be slow to the respond to their reaction. What a vicious circle.
It is quite the coincidence that discussion in a leadership class I attend discussed this hijack yesterday.
So…. I can label it – now to be able to find the ability to always be present enough to let the thinking brain be faster than the Amygdala!!!!
Life has had many changes for me. As I looked at how to work on finding the balance and joy from life as I have hit many bumps in the road emotionally; I knew I wanted to start up blogging again. What I contemplated was whether to start completely over or to continue here. As I look at my old (WAY old by the way!) posts I believe that the story this blog shows is telling.
I have been one that wants true authenticity. If I started blogging somewhere else in more of a hidden manner that goes against what my heart believes. Is it scary? It really, truly is… Very Scary.
My biggest change; my husband and I separated and then divorced after being together for 19 years. That is a long time to be with someone. This was final in September of 2014. The year up to and including this period of time has been very much a roller coaster ride.
Now it is time to create the life that I want. This life includes my beautiful daughter and working to ensure she has stability and feels nothing but love. This life includes my work, the career of being a leader in the chaotic corporate world and leading others to find balance and joy amidst that environment. This life also includes ME. I have often put ME, last. As I did this, I found myself in situations that I stayed in without thoroughly thinking through.
Welcome to 2014 — Time for renewal – for clear intentions and lots and lots of joy and love!
Yes, it has been 10 months, but — I AM BACK!
I work for a company that was purchased, it has been called a merger, but we were bought. The integration and my new job began officially in April of this year; however the work and interviews and the unknowns all began October/November of 2010. It has turned my life quite upside down. My regular exercising, my healthier (although not perfect) eating habits, my personal development study, my fairly balanced life — went crazy, upside down! My new job in this merging company has meant travel, a new boss – who is actually a former boss (who luckily is AWESOME), a new team, and an entirely unclear and unknown, chaotic world. I have spent time on projects which have ran into brick walls of political spiderwebs. I have started projects only to find others are also doing the same thing. I have been given lead on projects that confusingly get pulled. Bottom line — totally and completely upside down.
I have missed my husband and daughter – a lot! The toughest part has been the travel and the time required for work pulling me away from home. Several missed events at school; missed pick ups. All of this is so extremely difficult. My husband has been unbelievably supportable through all of this. He helps ground me; knowing I have them always, to come home to, to depend on; helps me make it through all the craziness.
In the last week, I have realized that my new job is giving me something new, something I haven’t necessarily had before. I am managing other managers. Usually I have managed mostly individual contributors. This is new for me, and as I realized, is giving me an opportunity to really do something that I love. I can work and strive to be an influence for people who are responsible for managing teams of people. Our company is going through very tough times; it requires strong leadership skills, new leadership skills. I really am getting to pursue my passion. Helping others and teams be successful, strong, balanced teams. I certainly am in a place that will make this not only necessary — but also hugely challenging.
Don’t Quit Till You Have Nothing Left
We can all do more than what we think we can do! Can we be our own coach and drive ourselves to the point that we have nothing left? Till we reach our desires? To continue working with our kids to help them reach adulthood with a good base to make it in our world; to learn and grow?
Friday Funny – RIGHT FROM THE HEART!!!
What do you think success is? It is completely subjective, it is different for every person out there. John Maxwell, someone who has been in the business of leadership and success describes his finding. He said it is understanding your purpose in life. Knowing your purpose in life becomes a stability for ones life. It creates true focus and it becomes an anchor in life that becomes a confidence based on a knowledge of purpose.
As I have moved into finding my passions and purpose, I agree with what he says. How about you? What do you think success is?
Zig was one of the first teachers/motivational speakers I heard and he still is one of my favorite. I want to share some of the notes I have about his thoughts on success!
“Success is never about acquiring what you want in one area of life but in every area of life.”
It is important to balance out your life and to me – I feel that is isn’t so much a balance but the idea of harmonizing. You never really BALANCE – you focus on one area and it will improve and then there will be something else that falls out of the current, but basically to have success one must harmonize the work that they do on themselves in every area of life.
“People often complain about the lack of time, when lack of direction is the real problem”
Without having some clear goals your actions and time are spent floating to what ever might seem most important at the time. Your time ends up being spent on things that are someone’s fire, they could be yours, or perhaps… not. If you live your life always putting out the fires without knowing what direction you are headed it is very possible that the resulting feelings and emotions are overwhelmed. Having goals gives you that direction.
“Staying motivated takes daily work, just like you need a daily bath”
Because what our minds take in is 80% negative (a study that Zig refers to) it is important to ensure we are working with as much motivational and positive stuff that we can. In addition to keeping motivated, keeping up with this spiritual/mental work will help you work with your own self limiting beliefs. “You are what you are and where you are because of what’s gone into your mind – You can change what you are, you can change where you are, by changing what goes into your mind”
“You can have anything in your life you want, if you will just help enough people get what they want”
We are living in a world of teaming and collaboration. If you sincerely and freely help others get what they want, if you work from a place of true service, it will get you where you need to go to do the things that you want to do. And that helps you become the person you want to become.